I dunno. damn this feeling.
when i look back so many years passed. what kind of person would i turn out to be if God werent there?
when i examine myself now i find someone so blessed. yet so troubled. will he continue to do as he did even if I made a choice? probably one of the biggest in my life. My mom did. neh. her Faith's too strong .That wouldnt have made any difference. I admire her sometimes. How strong she stands and never wavering.. God must love her. lots.

sorry. it's getting late and im a bit nostalgic..
hmm how many years? 11 already... long long time it is.

I have the burden. It's on me. at least it's gonna stay for a while.. the passion I used to have. lingers somewhere in there... calling out for something, somewhere I can fit into.



it's 2 now. hoorah.