It's her again.
thanks again you for trying to talk her over and for me and to talk them over you. But I still cant and Im sure you know it.
My life stopped for a while and im keeping up the pace I said. and there's this rope attached so If someone pulls I'll find my way back. like cookie crumbs I drop to be eaten by birds or to just decompose and become earth and eventually I wont be able to tell the difference.
Did I leave something behind or was it something that kept me behind?
The old me who knew how to take life as it came. who took things in his stride.

God help me.
Im wasting my life away and recycling scattered pieces of it and attaching them to commitments in school and church.
I pray that you get me back to the way I was when I still adored your word more than Her and everything else. But I fall in love more deeply than before the way I am now with the lucid dreaming state im in with each wasted day.


Every move she makes
Every vow she breaks
Every smile she fakes,
Every claim she stakes
I’ll be watching her
Every move she makes,
Every step she takes
I’ll be watching her
Every move she makes,
Every step she takes
I’ll be watching her.

Every breath she takes
Every move she makes
Every bone she breaks
Every step she takes
Every single day
Every word she says
Every game she plays
Every night she stays
Every move she makes
Every heart she breaks
Every smile she fakes
Every thing she stakes
Every breath she takes
Every move she makes
Every bondshe breaks
Every step she takes