a sunflower :) :(

There's others too.
and yup it's bittersweet. I know that at least im worth something, but I realise it's not that much, not yet, and anyway, there's others too.

I swear im not who I am on stage. if you cringed, take it back.. please.. sigh. Ningfei wasnt there.. he was masquerading to be someone's creation. so, no.. he wasnt there.. he's writing this now.

It's tough and I probably wont know how shitty it feels, but I want to be there. I want at least to lend a shoulder, or an embrace, or catch your tears or share the load, or if heaven doesnt forbid, share the bliss.. so please. just grant me permission, now wont you..