it's become routine to write something here. but it hasnt become something I want but more like to fill up the huge gaps btw posts and adhere to those to frequent here. blogging. or what.

Im messed up these days. bits and pieces of shit everywhere.
there's the combination I so wanted now. impulse maybe. but I dont know econs seem scary. and insignificant. and geography suddenly seems so appealing..

then comes the council.
doubts doubts doubts. I could help the fac a lot. but still. there's someone else I'd prefer to spent my time with, and it'd be tough on her to leave the campus at 10pm everyday. it sucks your soul.. sure, leading your fac may sound enticing, and particularly alluring when you know you'd probably make it, but still, like people say it's not worth screwing up studies for it.

and the persistent cantgetover class feeling still lingers.

but still being with you makes everything else better. much much better.